She Speaks!

So I decided to post on this long deserted blog tonight, not so much for someone to read it, but because it's nice to get thought out there sometimes.

To tell you the truth I have been kind of depressed lately. Usually I am really good at figuring out my emotions, I turn my finely tuned analytical skills in on myself, and I figure out why I am feeling what I am and then try to give myself the advice I'd give someone else. I am really into problem solving and all that good stuff that helps us regroup and try things anew. Well I am sort of at a loss about what is wrong (let's be honest, there are lots of options to chose from) so I am going to go spend a pretty penny at therapy, trying to unravel the mystery.

I am nervous and excited about going to therapy. I am thrilled to talk with someone who is paid just to listen to me rant. I have no obligation to have a two-way conversation and quite selfishly, I want that. The thing is that when you love and care about people, as we all should, sometimes it's exhausting and you don't really know how to find the magic line between caring about their burdens vs. carrying their burdens. Sometimes even my own self-analysis is just so dang exhausting. So I'm trying to be more consistent about exercise, eat a little better, pray a lot more, and journal???  but let's be real, I've been planning to improve on those things for weeks but I just keep eating junk food, watching lots of TV shows and buying too much frivolous stuff... so next week I'm off to therapy. I'll let you know what I figure out (unless it's too deep and dark to post on a blog which no one reads).